For a long time now, I am always asked if I like to be alone or why I am always alone. Whenever I answer this question with a “Yes” or “Because I just feel like doing it”, I am always getting those sad eyes response or a pat in the head. The thing is, I don’t really understand why people are sad for me or why they associate me to a depressed, lonely or an ‘emo’ person.
Am I comfortable being alone?
The answer is Yes. I tried to sort my thoughts out to see if I am being real. Because maybe I am just being denial or maybe I am just one of those people who tried to hide and isolate their pain behind a sweet smile (Lol! I find the second thought a little ‘cringey’).
I jot down some of the things that are making me comfortable as a loner.
- I like the feeling of peace and silence. Whenever I feel alone, everything just seem to be quiet and I love the calmness that it brings to me. I can think and have deeper realization about different things.
- Freedom. This is a little bit weird but I feel like I’m more free to do a lot of things whenever I’m alone. I feel ‘more’. But don’t get me wrong. I am pretty sure I am not depressed.
- I can work more. Well, I learned and cope up with this trait since I was in grade school. I prefer to do things alone or independently as much as I can. Although it doesn’t mean I can’t work with teams. In fact I was a school leader before!
- I can notice more. I just love the feeling of focusing to details more and giving more thoughts to these such as in paintings and in poems. This is a thing that I can’t do much whenever I’m in a crowd because I can be easily distracted.
These are pretty much the basic reasons. The ‘con’ of being a loner though sometimes is that you are constantly accused of spacing out. Lol! But just to clarify things, I am not sad nor depressed.
Thanks for reading! Have a good day.